Shut up and, read the word!

I don’t know how old I was when I heard that little voice in my head for the first time. For all I know, it has always been there. Always talking me in and out of decisions. Always telling me who I am, and who I am supposed to be. My mind is always thinking, my thoughts running a mile a minute. That voice in my head puts in overtime day in and day out. Many times, I let it control me.

It is no secret that I can talk way too much. I find myself being as much of an introvert as I am a people person, which still confuses me. I enjoy talking about my day, my problems, and telling endless stories that date back way too far. In conversations, I am usually the one answering more than I am asking. I catch myself going on and on about myself, and realize that I haven’t let the person I am talking with share one bit.

These two bad habits seem to clash when it comes to my relationship with the Lord. Between that voice babbling in my head, and my own complaints and requests, I without even realizing it, drown out the voice of God.

A little while ago, I had a revelation where the Lord simply told me to “SHUT UP”. It took me a while to understand exactly what this meant. You see, He doesn’t just want me to shut-up, but He wants me to listen.

Okay, that seemed simple. I needed to stop talking, and listen to what the Lord was saying to me. But how did I know what He was saying? How could I distinguish the voice of God, from all the others I hear on a daily basis?

The answer to this question came to me in a way I wasn’t prepared for. The radio in my car doesn’t work, so I use a Bluetooth speaker to listen to music. This particular day, I could not get my speaker to connect to my phone. This meant I had to ride in silence. I remember thinking, “Well there went my chance to hear the Lord!” I figured I couldn’t get in the “mood” without some worship music. I would have to ride in silence.

Oh how God works! As I drove home from work, my mind was completely blank. I don’t even think I was focusing on driving. There were absolutely no words in my head. And that’s when God spoke. I remember being told  that God often spoke in a whisper. Caught up in the blankness, The Lord whispered to me in a tone that was so loud and clear. Faint and soft, but also strong and powerful, God spoke two words to me. THE WORD.

The brightest of light bulbs was lit in my brain. DUHHH DESTINEE. I could picture the Lord shaking me by the shoulders. “The Word Destinee!” “Its in the Word!!!”

All this time I was searching for God’s voice in all the wrong places. Trying to figure out what He was doing, what He was going to do, I looked to the world. Maybe it was in a worship song, or maybe it was in the words of my small group leader. I searched for the voice of the Lord in blog posts, Pinterest quotes, and podcasts. While these things are all great, and they all point to Jesus, they stem all from something. They are all branches of the tree rooted in the truth. “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.” John 1:1

The Word. That’s where we hear from God, because the Word IS God. As believers, we tend to forget this. We get so caught up in the “show” of Christianity that we forget the basics.

I’ll be completely honest, and tell you that I have slacked big time with getting into the Word. In the past few months, I have gone days, WEEKS without touching my bible, and you could tell just by speaking to me. I went through seasons of loneliness, confusion, anxiety, and fear. I searched all over for an answer. I looked high and low for something; anything that would show me what God was doing in my life. Meanwhile, the answer sat on my dresser, untouched, and collecting dust.

 I’ve always known it was good to read my bible, but in the past few months, I have forgotten why I NEED to read my bible. Sometimes, the bible is just not all that appealing. I personally find myself uninterested at times. “This doesn’t pertain to me.” “That’s not what I wanted to hear.” “What about this?” “What about that?” “How does this help me?” I can be so stubborn. I want to read the cuddly stuff. You know the verses that make you feel all warm and fuzzy inside. I wasn’t interested in reading the hard stuff; the stuff that made me realized I needed to make some life changes.

The Word of God is the basic most genuine form of truth we have here on this earth. The hard stuff is the stuff we need to read. It is the truth that shows us what God is doing in our lives, and what He will do in our lives.

If you ever find yourself searching for God’s voice, an answer to a prayer, or direction in life, look to the Word. I bet you’ll find just what you need.

Love always,
Destinee Nicole

“Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path.” | Psalm 119:105

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